It now 3 weeks of lock down, and I had a meltdown.
Yesterday, I was having a rough day.
I was feeling totally lost, unsure of my purpose and just feeling totally down.
At times I felt alone, too.
At times I was scared of very limited income coming in because of the pandemic and how the hell am I supposed to make this all work?
Sometimes I have no fear and have faith it will all work out. Often I help others out of their funk and offer light into their situation.
Most times I am pretty optimistic and can move through issues by regrouping…as I have with the Daily Inspirational cards and videos posted on YouTube. I can usually keep it together and be strong for others.
Yesterday was not that day.
I had no inspiration. I had no direction. I allowed myself to be lost and just be… and wallow if I wanted to.
I went for a walk and my hip hurt. My hip I have learned is my indication that I am not aligned with my purpose or I am not being myself fully. But I kept walking even with my hurting hip. I wanted to be outside.
I went further than I probably should have in my MBT instability shoes….and I kept asking myself….’where am I misaligned with who I am? Where am I misaligned with my purpose? How the hell am I supposed to regroup yet again? wth?’
Somewhere I re-engaged a muscle group and hip feels better even today. Somewhere I just enjoyed the fresh air and stopped worrying about trying to figure ‘it’ out.
I kept breathing and walking until I got home. I was stiff but the pain was minimal.
I allowed myself to be where I was and give myself permission not to be productive as I wasn’t feeling I had direction.
Then a friend texted me to check in. And I texted my situation. …’I am questioning my purpose right about now.’
He texted back “Your purpose is to be who you are and that is a healing kind soul.”
I responded with wanting to ‘create some new online programs…but what do people want? Need??’
He responded again ‘it’s not about people, it’s about you’
and then I totally had my meltdown with not being able to answer the question of ‘who am I?’
I spent the afternoon mulling the ‘it’s about you….’ and let my thoughts wander.
I took a nap although I thought I was fully rested….and listened to some simon sinek video later that evening listening to his thoughts on finding your why…
I realized, I still had my why. I want to inspire people to feel better. I want them to eat, move and sleep better and feel better about themselves.
My why is to inspire others to find happiness in who they are, and love the skin they are in by feeding their body, mind and soul with absolute self-love.
I want others to really know what it is their body needs and provide tools so they can continue to tap into who they are, what their body needs intuitively so they eat, move and sleep better, have a better relationship with themselves by choosing to be loving to self first.
I create that safe space to help you heal emotional scars and criticisms that made you criticize yourself. Lord knows, I had plenty of those growing up and through my own journey of self-discovery and healing with The Path To Heal system that these can be healed with love. If I can do it, you can heal with love, too. It is why I created the Be Whole program!
I want to help you peel those layers of who you are not so the true you can be. I want you to feel whole, not full of holes.
It had to have my own little pandemic meltdown to realize I AM an intuitive nutrition and energy therapy coach. I want people to be loving to who they are!
Thank you Rick for texting me and saying what I needed to hear.
Still unsure of what is next but I definitely needed a day to feel upside down and have my pandemic meltdown.
Good to have one day of feeling upside down as today I am feeling much better and helped a client get a step closer to her happiness.
As the photo on the right says, You cannot calm the storm, but you can calm yourself.
My storm did pass and I can help you get calm so your storm is less of a meltdown and you recover quicker to who you are, your why and your purpose.
Now, shall I create new programs online? What would you want to learn? Or should I ask, what do I love to teach? I mean, it IS about me, right?
So I will be creating online workshops helping you learn what I already know about fueling the body, mind, spirit and sport.
If you are having a challenge or a pandemic meltdown, or too much stress, please reach out and we may schedule a healing session or just talk and allow you to vent.